Saturday, November 14, 2009

thanksgiving!

wow i haven't posted anything in foreverrrrr
i already planned on making a post for thanksgiving, but now i can do that AND get entered to win a modcloth 100$ giftcard :D

what i am thankful for.. hmm..
i'm going to say.. my home!
i love my house, more than anything in the whole world almost. yes it's pretty crappy and we have a lot of bad neighbors and crazy people and we're isolated in the country and live on a crappy gravel/dirt road, but i've lived here for 15 of the 16 years of my life! sure it has a lot of work that needs to be done on it, sure it floods almost every winter, sure the power breaker snaps sometimes and we have to find a different place to sleep in case our house blows up, but i love it! there have been so many memories, i've seen all my 6 nieces and nephews grow up here, i've seen my siblings go from awful high schooler to sucessful adults, i've made mistakes and learned lessons. i've got through suicide, depression, anorexia, and just hard times in the family, gotten through it all in these old walls. i've got my greatest inspirations for art and ideas while sitting and staring at my ceilings and floors of my house. our fireplace that keeps me warm and gives me happy feelings, the textures in the window panes that keep me entertained for hours, finding shapes and drawing them or writing stories about them. the one place where i'm always comfortable, even if i've got a green face mask on and dirty pj's and greasy hair! :D often i complain, "omg i'm so bored, stuck in my boring house" but this house.. my home.. it has kept me safe for so many years, it's provided me happiness and comfort and safety for so long, its given me a place to hide when im talking on the phone, and its given me corners to sit in when i'm thinking my most intimate thoughts! i'm going to bawl my eyes out when i have to move, but i lovelovelove my house!! (built in 1974 c:)